Entrancing into 2011 with Sparkles

Awaiting to bid farewell to year 2010 wiv ah Dear & the heavy crowds @ Curve now makes me realize how much I had experienced throughout the year and how many precious people I have met, those which have made lotsa huge difference in my days ever since. Okay, very much pleased with my year. I have what I had :)

What's Next is the big question ya!
2011 New Year Resolution, outta too many:
1. Swim like a mermaid (kekeke!)
2. Play Violin (childhood dream!)
3. Make my 3rd trip to Europe! I dun care where to!!
4. Win TOTO! I dun care how $!!
5. Achieve my KPI wiv stretching results in BD
6. Dun age & becoming Prettier and Slimmer (kekeke!)
7. Have more fun in My Way!

Yup, Forgiveness is the kindness of love and to forgive own self & others bring us to the next level of integrity. Orite, let's move on and the first step into Year 2011 is Love Myself beautifully :) Fireworks, I'm waiting...so fantasize me into the world of 2011.

The Kindness of Loving

It has been ages since my last post...with all the new changes ever since I walked out from LP in April. The job changes due to my Out-of-the-Comfort-zone moments has a lot of impact in my past few months journey. What lies ahead is yet unknown..??

What am I gonna write about at this hour...? I'm in the thought of love, on my own love relationship, with my heart & my spirit. It has been some time since I last felt I have given unconditionally. Today, I felt the human touch again from a loving couple with their sacred love to their little boy, and there I went...once again, being the giver to people who deserve my giving. None of us has the power to make someone else love us. But we all have the power to give away love, to love others. And if we do so, we change the kind of person we are,and we change the kind of world we live in.

Love to me is...Being kind to myself in moments of stress. When the stresses of life sets in, take a moment & do something kind to myself. Take a bubble bath, MUST comes with lavender aroma and take a long warm soak. Put on my favourite music. Take a much-needed nap. Being kind to ourselves will open our heart and mind again to the doors of possibility and the solutions to problems..I believe. To love yourself, is also to become a possibilitarian. No matter how dark things seem to be or actually are, raise your sights and see possibilities-always see them,for they are always there. Tonite I've also realized & understand that another kind of love is...Guiding others to grow at their pace. Every single individual is different. Guiding & teaching others, whether they are your children, colleagues or partner, is for the purpose of encouraging growth. Allow them the freedom of growing at their own pace - their knowledge will be better absorbed & rejection is unlikely to arise. Being the controller me, this is a great learning. At times, learn to slow down and look out for others that are not at the same pace, look out for things that I could have missed out along the journey.

I believe Love is attending to our inner call for peace. To live on this belief, I must try to make time for solitude. To seek ways to restore peace in myself - a slow walk in the park, a 'leechless' jungle trail walk, meditation while connecting to the nature spiritually will probably be my option. For my own growth as a typical controller, I shall learn to be present to the quiet mind & peaceful heart which then later, practice & recognise that feeling and bring it up in time of stresses. To the next level of wisdom..I shall give in to myself.

"The more tranquil a man becomes, the greater is his success, his influence, his power for good. Calmness of mind is one of the beautiful jewels of Wisdom"

-James Allen-

~ So far yet so Near ~

Yes, I feel the existence,coz it lives within my soul. I believe in myself, no superheroes can win over this strong feeling that I possessed deep inside. "Stay focus, look at me and be focus, don't let the feelings and emotions overtake you, I really want to be there standing in front of you on your graduation, AW or not Im always there with you" - This is wat brought me to advanced, to go thru advanced, to get cradled and lifted up high, and to walked out of advanced into who I am now, into who I want to be in this LP journey. It is You, that I acknowledged making this happen for me. That is one of the greatest thing that is happening to me, really...the greatest love inside me. You know who you are. You taught me, learning to love myself. I dunno who I am to you now, but no matter what, you are the inspiration that lives within me that make me go all out, and make it happen. I wish, one wish, to give you the warmest hug on my 3rd weekend.

Yes, so far but so near.

On My Own

It's an extraordinary excitement, heart-thumping, anxious, nervous feelings with uncertainty that overwhelmed me for last 2 weeks and especially today, coz THIS IS THE DAY... the day I declared as the beginning of my LP journey. I dropped from LP131 with courage and again, I joined LP133 with more courage..coz this time, it's solely ON-MY-OWN. I juz received a sms from Alvin - "Could it be because you going there alone this time?" It could be - I dunno my dear. It's probably true as there are all new people that Im going to meet soon and Im going to go thru this hardcore journey with them whom I have no idea yet...but it's my new possibilities and challenges in life. It's really a mixed emotions. However, I make a stand to myself that Im making this the greatest journey for LP133 !! I feel a pocketful of gratitude to my supportive GLP particularly my sister. I want to make it happen with whatever it takes. Remove all jargons and honour my words with my actions. I kept telling myself there must be a reason Im dropping out from LP131 and making LP133 my LP journey then. Guess it's time to find out now what's the hidden reason and whatever it is, this is going to be my LP journey for my lifetime...let it be the time of my life! About 1.5 hrs more to go...

" I start again go back to one
I'm running things in my way
Can't stop me now, I've just begun
Don't even think about it
There ain't no way about it
I'm taking names, the ones of mine
Yes I'm gonna take my turn
It's time for me to finally stand alone, stand alone

I am not afraid to try it on my own
And I don't care if I'm right or wrong
I'll live my life the way I feel
No matter what I'm gonna keep it real you know
It's time for me to do it "


Very interestingly, I received a msg on 5th Jan 2010 and this is what it's about...

" Nothing is exciting if you know what the outcome is going to be. You keep wanting
to know how things will play out. Keep asking to see the future. God doesn't give
anyone the power to know the future, because life becomes maddeningly boring when
you know everything upfront. So, instead of struggling, enjoy the uncertainty - to
be alive means to not know! "

Eddie called at the rite moment, as usual my best buddy :-

" Do not need to get along and agree with everybody, but be alligned "
" I'm so proud of your courage to go in there again "
" Don suck away those energy and power inside you "

Thanks for all this acknowledgement from you guys, particularly...my lovely sister, Eddie, Kian, Alvin, Debbie, SiauCheng, Alex etc.

So here I come...1st weekend for my LP133 journey.
I am a TRUSTWORTHY, PASSIONATE and LOVING woman :)