The Last Hour of 2009 ~

One more hour...we are bidding farewell to 2009. Time flies in a click of time... especially the second half year, from my birthday onwards. Uncountable ups and downs, good and bad things but I guess all these are an experience in life, good lessons for future. I always asked myself over and over, why things happened repeatedly huh...'See, it happened once again!' and I accepted things happen for a reason, really. I guess things kept occuring because I have not learned the lesson yet. Someone once told me;

When I ask for Strength, God gave me difficulties to make me stronger,
When I ask for Wisdom, God gave me problems to solve,
When I ask for Prosperity, God gave me brain to work,
When I ask for Courage, God gave me danger to overcome,
When I ask for Love, God gave me troubled people to help,
When I ask for Favour, God gave me opportunities
and I have actually received everything that I asked for and I needed...
These are really one of the best quotes that pulled me through. Many people come and go throughout the entire year and I have seen many true colour, various one diverse in characters and I learned to accept things as it comes and goes. I learn to shift myself to the right quadrant in life when I need to be and best thing of all that I learn is to be contented with myself, with life and people surrounding me. I feel really lucky to meet a wonderful bunch of people that stand a great part of my life from September onwards. They give unconditional care, love and great friendship when I need it the most. I learn to enjoy my life the other way, which I have never came across or thought of. I feel the greatest love of all has happened to me :) Thx to AW for all that I gained...

THe best song that inspired me this year - No Boundaries...I would weather the hurricane, there's no boundaries & NOTHING'S GONNA BRING ME DOWN. Thx to AW for my cradle song, a very momentous song that bring a big impact for me - On My Own...I'm wiser now, I'm not the foolish girl I used to be so long ago, I'm stronger now I've learned from my mistake which way to go, and I am not afraid to try it on my own, I don't care if I'm right or wrong, I'll live my life the way I feel, no matter what I'll keep it real... wonderful really, isn't it!

I feel glad to spend more time with my family this year, esp dad and mum. I've posted the most meaningful photo taken this year...during dad's 60th birthday in Sg. I choose to spend this new year at home with dad mum and two monkey nephews...it has been years and years since I last spent my last and first day of the year with dad and mum. I miss the warmth and peacefulness at home. I just recalled that we were out there with many from the family during 2000 millenium countdown 10 yrs ago... time really flies huh.

Em...it's the last quarter to a good closing of 2009...it has been an interesting year, a year of great change, it's hell and heaven, it's a year of TRANSFORMATION! It's an incredible journey that I've grown, mature and shine into another level. I am really grateful to all the loved ones surrounding me...u guys made it happen for me and I believe there will be more opportunities to create by walking into 2010 that welcome us with abundant love, hope, faith, joy, madness nd fun. A compelling desire, with a solid belief, followed by an effective action and most importanty, an iron will to a BETTER 2010... HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 !!

A Momentous Pre-Xmas Week

It was an incredible trip in Ho Chi Minh with the companion of close customers like Carol, Ratna, Selve & close colleagues. This is just the preview of the journey for the entire pre-Xmas week, which had so much that took place. I have posted some of the chosen pics...and more to come. This HCM trip was much more fun, entertaining and pleasureable trip than what I thought...at least an enhanced experience compared to Danang & HCM trip in June during the distributor meeting. This 2nd International Scientific Seminar has attracted alot of VIP customers and simultanenously, has created a stronger bonding with them particularly Carol,the GM of Pathlab, my ex-boss as well as my long-time mentor. We got to understand each other in depth, sharing of personal life and understanding in life, with her invaluable coaching. INCREDIBLE!! ~When handling people, remember to pull and not to push~ This is my distinction of 'Life is an enrollment game'. I even shared my past relationship with her and remember her coaching of 'Law of Attraction'...a book that I promised myself to look into coz I believe in her that it could really put into practice in my life. She reminded me 'It's always about making choices' and again, in my distinction, it's either 4 feet shitty or 10 feet shitty. Whatever it is, it's always about choice, let it be a better choice or the best choice outta no choice. Amazingly after 3 yrs tenure in Sysmex, I just found out she has given me a great compliment to my MD prior employing me..."She can do anything that is asked from her, in her scope". I felt the warmth and pride from her belief and confidence in me all these time. Receiving her msg upon our return on Wed nite made me realized that our bonding has moved on to a greater level ~ "Thanks for making my stay in saigon such a great time appreciate it :-)" She is a woman with wisdom, integrity and love from my solid belief. The Gala Dinner on 14th nite was exhilarating and fascinating... enjoying the soothing and incredible authentic vietnamese music and instruments performance. That was the nite that I witnessed a magic show for the first time in my life :) Really entertaining and enlivening!! The Bonsai river cruise dinner along Saigon River is another thrilling and fantastic experience. The best part was when I was dancing heartily as being invited to the stage for the Bamboo Dance... managed to follow the steps easily and I was really enjoying. However, on my way down from the stage, I twisted and sprained my both legs..so the best and worst souvenirs I brought back from Vietnam are two badly swollen sprained legs :( Despite that, I insisted to join the rest to CHinatown the next morning before our departure and manage to get myself a nice hat, that I've been longing to get. The unsurpassed moment would be me, Angie and Gan sitting down in the most famous coffee house in Vietnam - Trung Nguyen and enjoying the finest sweet aroma vietnamese coffee. Wonderful!! Ho Chi Minh trip in details to be continued....**

Working for only one day in the entire week, nothing can be better than this :) Thx to all these Malay holidays hehehe. Went for 'Couple Retreat' with sis today. A movie that I have been anticipating for since months ago. Good enough for not disappointing me. Gonna hunt for the DVD and the soundtrack soon. 'Before condemning or making complaints in your relationship, look into the mirror' True enough... Feedback is really about mirror reflection. I bought a few nice 'coaster fabric-Xmas Cards' for Yieping, Angie, Gan & Vish as their Xmas pressie in acknowledging their teamwork spirit and being such a good working companion. So guyzz better keep it well ya coz I like it very much :)

Oh ya, one more to update. Did a crazy 'stunt' right after my return to KL on Thurs nite. We had a pyjamas nite movie session in MidValley GSC, watching Avatar. Thousands of eyes were locked on us hahaha. Alvin and Hariz really participated 100% with their fantastic sleeping wear, fluffy slippers and bolsters hahaha. LP131 had a great fun and I will upload some crazy pics later on kekeke. Im awaiting for the coming Xmas week....

And OH YA again...Im missing the ice cream in coconut from Ho Chi Minh already :p

a' Sweet-amusing-fanatical Wedding~

It was a moment so sweet to witness sucha heart-warming and touching wedding of Eric & ALice on a Sat nite. It was a faithful group of people who worked it out and made it happened for them...who brought so much joy in creating this jolly wonderful amazing memorable wedding nite for them, and for us who shared the sensational happiness. Ten of us were lined up into 2 lines with a pink rose in each of our hands, facing each other, awaiting for the groom to start singing the love from his heart ~ "Everyday I Love You" to the stunning, beautiful and glittering bright bride and as they walked through the aisle, we handed the rose to the bride, seeing that blissful smile on her face. It was a speechless awesome moment! As they walked on, we were singing along with Eric and there were touching smiles on each of our faces. It proves that Fairy tale true Love is real :) I do believe that destiny is destined, and fate is a creation. The warmth deep inside my heart is unspeakable, watching their life video and the story of these two loving couples. All of us from (AW) were having alot of fun and we made it happened again with the jolly spirits! Met a few new faces - GLP and enjoy the connection with them, it is so much livelier and alive in this circle. Pui and SiauCheng agreed too. Both me and Pui moved on to the live band performance in 'Ali Yaa' @ Damansara. Kinda good shit though. I headed home earlier to pack for my luggage as Im flying to Ho Chi Minh at 2:55pm later. Lots of clothes I brought along...like a fashion show awaiting Kekekeke :p

Woke up earlier this morning than what my mind wanted, I turned on my laptop straightaway to type this post and at the same time, Im searching for songs that is most suitable and is meaningful for those that I want to dedicate too. I have chosen 'When You Believe' for Siva... 'Hero' for Eddie... 'One Moment In Time' for Alvin... 'I Believe I Can Fly' for Alex and last but not least, 'The Climb' for Siau Cheng. Still thinking of how to deliver this love of mine to them on the last day of their LP journey in the most memorable way that could last a lifetime for them. I feel like Im living in the moment of 'the greatest love of all' now... I guess that's the reason why I started telling my closed one Im enjoying my life the other way now...seize the mooment :)

Dad juz called...and he's rite, I shall start moving my ass and get ready to airport. Not so delighted for this trip tho, perhaps Im more excited about the outings on my return muahahaha. I brought along my 'New Moon' for companionship on the plane...till then TATA ~~

Speedy Recovery @ Prolific Day

Thanks to the functional Azithromycin...for my speedy recovery :) Had a productive day, as seeing alot of results. Woke up darn early - many thanks to my sis for knocking my door at 7:30am...I was unable to continue back to sleep & wasted my holiday sleep-in. Did some housechores & headed for a hair cut & treatment. Met up Eddie for late lunch at "FULLHOUSE" & guess wat, tat's my DreaM Concept Cafe!! Nice western settings with beautiful fashion boutique at the other end & garden settings with store selling interior decor products. The chandeliers, lightings, wall paintings, dining settings and wall colour are all matching, restful, calming and soothing - a place that is so DAZZLING & attractive for people of any ages. The menu is distinguishing too with amazing delicious food. I promise to post up some pics next time I visit :) That was my dream come true!! All I want is the similar concept, smaller scale with more homey-warm ambience and abit of victorian design. It's not easy - finding good chefs, sourcing for exceptional fashion clothings... choosing the right brand, trustable and reasonable contractor for renovation & the list go on etc. Maybe proposal should start from now...getting a reliable and truthful biz partner is another tough mission. So guess it all comes down to No Pain No Gain huh.

Had a long talk with Eddie after shopping for some Xmas clothing...buying him 6 scoops of Hagen Daz as a payback for our deal :( Hopefully after this conversation, you will know what is best to continue this LP journey wiv u as the most authentic, soaring seagull ok, Eddie!

Agreed for dinner with Daniel...went for TGIF, had a gud conversation. Later headed for movies..gonna watch Couple Retreat but too bad, so the 4 feet shitty is "Zombieland". Shockingly, it wasn't shitty..it's kinda hilarious, relaxed & nice tho. I had a great time and I believe him when he said he did too. I suppose it is proven right we best stay as fren :) Orite..dun wanna go into there. So this is my prolific day of making things happened!

Even happier when I received a call from FeiFei - it has been more than 4 yrs at least since we realy sit down and catch up. Her wedding would be on 30th Jan @ Eastin Hotel. I am so happy for her :) I asked for a gathering with the rest of the gals earlier in Jan...I do miss them alot after so many years...

Guess the medicine has started to kick in & I shall doze off soon. Nitez nitez...

I'm under Par ~

What a frenzied week? Hectic of catching up with watsoever pending since past month & next I know I fell sick last nite :( Flu, blocked nose, running fever, dry cough, sore throat, sore eyes, body aching...u name it I have it. Thanks Yieping for accompanying me to Dr Tang, taking 1 course of Azithromycin is my hope now. Thanks Pui for the overnite porridge...slow-cooked as very nice congee wiv fresh scallops now. I have 2 bowls tho :) Luckily it's public holiday tomoro..I can have some golden rest. Heading to Ho Chi Minh in 2 days time.. so pray for super-speedy recovery or probably this could be a better excuse to skip the pre-arranged Cu Chi tunnel tour under the darn hot sun :p

My plan to Kota Kinabalu for Xmas is ON !! It has been 14 yrs since I first and last went..I named it the best paradise in entire Msia. It has been many years since I last spent my NewYear wiv dad & mum and being at home. So this year, my vision is to have a warm new year celebration with dad mum & 2 monkeys at home :P I want them to have a memorable one, MAKE IT HAPPEN!!

TIMEof myLIFE

Creating this blog today coz I am resetting my life from one, I want this new life to begin..to refresh me. It has been quite a journey for the past months. The ups and down that were choking me, draining me physically emotionally mentally & spiritually. Too many to digest too little time. Suffering from vertigo, extreme giddiness and strenuous body and mind. What else? Blood test report showed high CA125 tumour marker and I hesitated to break the news to my closed ones...Started thinking what's next?! Heading for ENT consultation and inspection looks good, panicking for DNA test which seems to take ages. Felt like the sky has dropped on my feet..but at the same time, feeling fortunate enough having him as my boyfriend, as physical & mental supporter, accompanying me for each doctor's visits and follow-up. However, it's always too good to be true. Never would I expect that he would walk off from me 2 days before taking my final medical report. That was shocking and devastated...hundreds of queries forming like a pop-up window. What was the webpage he created meant to be then? Has he been real all these while? "I do not want to take up the responsibility of taking care of you anymore..U've taken too much of my time..Let me be selfish and just live a simple life...I do not love you enough" It was extremely hurtful at that point of life while fearing for wat I will be facing next. However, I surprised myself by not breakdown, I did not cry like a baby. It's perhaps I did not have strong faith at the first place but what i realized is I have shifted in the shortest time I have ever experienced. I respect his choice and I accept the fact that I should free him like a bird..coz he's not meant to be by my side. I move on by not having him to drag along in my life. I feel more lively, dynamic and FREE then. I learned!! TOo many that I have picked up...things realy happened for a reason, at the right timing. This is the time to forgive mysef..I've always carried the guilt, the shame of watsover that went wrong in life for long enough. I have kept the wounds from pastsss open for too long. The time has to come to let go, to heal. Keep the lessons and let the pain heal. YES, this song - "On My Own' by Whitney Houston has been a true spiritual song that pull me through and walked out stronger. I have always put myself aside and do it 'your way'...It's time for me to do it on my own and keep it real. I have the entire world right in front of me. I have never notice how many people who care and love me right in front of my eyes...I have bypassed these great people. I learn to shift this time, I learn to accept that the greatest love of all is happening to me. Happiness has nothing to do with pleasure. Happiness is absolute and unconditional. Happiness is real understanding and acceptance of life ~~